Bye bye 2008!!!!!

2008, was a year of new promises... new hopes and new determination...
but mostly was destroyed halfway...
LOL
you guys know me... the sad ... unmotivated one...
well anyways, it was one hella year too...
I went to NS... did many crazy things, met so many people, experienced so many things...
viewed another new world in a different way I guess I won't have the chance to view anyway,
well nothing to linger there either... I had enough of that.. haha

I went to college... met new, interesting people...
experienced living out there, with my friends... and housemates

did a LOT of crazy stuff in between...
watched the olympics in McDonald's
enter some mad competition which I was so confident I could win but it ended up otherwise...
at least I got into top 10...
LOL..
well anyways, it wasn't Next Top Model or whatever so I'm fine with it...
if it was, I would be walking the runway in Milan right now ^^Top~~Top~~Top~~
lol..
if only the background was nicer...


ouh yeah, worked in a Pc Fair on August?
yeah, Brilliant experience....

celebrated birthday with my friends for once...
lovely people^^

and I found love :D
details = classified

and experienced studying again... pressure of everything from that.. although I broke down halfway
and got into serious depression for a period... now I'm okay... I guess I wouldn't venture into that part again....

at one period I had seriously low self esteem too....

well I guess I am undergoing the highest point of puberty where my raging hormones and inner demons are killing to consume me from within?
hopefully yeah...
cause I can't afford to go through all of this next year..
WHICH IS TOMOROW!!!
@.@

tomorow is a dawn of a new era!
which i say most of the time..
but this one is really a new ERA!!!!
its 2009!!!!

I had the best Christmas of my life!
I had turkey!!!
=.=
finally went to a pub...

gained WEIGHT!
but loose again...

erm what else...
oh nevermind...

so tomorow, although I haven't changed much!
I will be brand new!
I will have the swagger like a businessman+genius+supermodel
and I will be a kinder person...smarter... hopefully..
positive... determined...
and everything nice^^

OH YEAH! I forgot to complained about something..
omg... my clothes... 2 of them are ruined....=.=
white ones... expensive ones....
I just realised it yesterday when I was packing...
ruined by rust.... most probably while hanging in my aunty's in Penang...
T_T....
my lovely clothes...

ConClusion = BYEBYE 2008! HELLO 2009!!!

Late Christmas entry...

i'm tired of blogging sometimes... mostly because I don't get much inspiration anymore..
anyway...
CHRISTMAS!!!!!
which was 2 days ago...
lol...

btw btw, go check out this song I personally think is the coolest christmas song ever
Christmas Tree - by Lady Gaga
she memang D BOMB!

so what did I do on my Christmas eh...
hehehe...
alcohol.. alcohol.. and alcohol...
LOL
true...
ok dont worry I only drink when I'm with certain friends...
don't worry that I'll be addicted or something...
I honestly can't drink anyways...
I just love being in a pub.... not that I go there always either...
:D

so on eve... I makan in a very nice restaurant....
the food is so stimulating and I utterly love the food...
location = classified
sadly I had to wait like 45 minutes because its the peak season and you know lots of customers...
ran out of supplies... need to do this do that..
my mood was a bit off when a pissed customer was complaining to the waitress who can't speak English fluently... sad her...
the customer was a foreigner most probably from England or wherever...

the food she ordered wasn't available anymore
so she ordered again...
and then it wasn't available again but the waitress can't explain the situation because the flour ran out... and she was bloody pissed
" Thanks so much for ruining my Christmas eve! =,,="
with that crying tone...

@.@

anyways, I went to a pub for a countdown...
nothing much to elaborate...
one thing if you guys are curious...
how is it like..
all i can say is lots and lots of smoke...=.= I really can die there...
and crazy people dancing...
and loud music...
oh yeah... and alcohol! :D
I vomitted everytime I go there because of the bloody smoke..
anyways, I had great fun

OH YEAH!
I finally had a taste of turkey!!!!!
bloody tasty:D


after that in the afternoons I met Jessica,Yi Yong and Chee Yee
Jessica cut short her hair and dye it liao wer...
Yi Yong and CY.. never changed..
LOL
which is a good thing in a way
so we chat and drink..
an dinner with Kah Moon
she became prettier and prettier liao wer...
more matured^^
and we catch up on each other lives...
I finally laughed evily again...
and we joked... nothing special...
but that's the special part... being with my special friends who I dearly love
that's the magic of Christmas ^^

anyways. I GOT THIS FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!
OH
MY
GOD!!!!!



OH MY GOD!!!
I LOVE MY MONKEY SO MUCH!!!
btw its called BERTAL!
lol=.=
don't ask why...
oh yeah in case you're wondering..
yeah that's my new hair =D

Merry Belated Christmas everyone

and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

COnclusion = my best christmas... T_T very touching...

SHOPPING!!! and life...

so when I got back from Malacca...
which I didn't got a chance to even shop...
bloody... but it doesn't really matter...

I shopped! woohoo~~!!
one of my favourite activity :D
but I can't really elaborate here cause I guess a lot of you people aren't really fond of shopping...
so my point is, I went to every giant malls in Penang, worked my leg muscles and eyes...
and I guess I have completed my pick out for my clothes of next year...
yeah... I shop during December for my next year clothes... so at one point my fashion may fade but hey... I wear everything nice de la don't worry... LOL

*I wanna be top~~ top ~~ top~~*
(if you don't know what that means, don't bother)
haha, but I guess all my friends know...

oh yea, I finished a book I just bought which is by....
J.K ROWLING!!!!
oh my god I heart her...
she's my queen....
lol its "Tales of Beedle the Bard" , its like a book of fairytales in the wizarding world..
same like our Snow White, Sleeping Princess, still got what ah... those fairytales la..

and I downright love it... gives me a piece of Harry Potter's world again ^^

this is my version... but I guess the other one is the original version...How come I didn't see this version de=.=...
maybe they have it in KinoKuniya...
but whatever liao la.. already bought..
damn... this one looks so much nicer...
T_Tand the book I mentioned I was determined to finish?
"thanks for the memories " by cecilia Ahern?
lol...
I guess I won't make it in time..
don't know la...
these few days I just go out and makan and shop...

oh oh.! although its kinda late
but I just watched "Twilight" yesterday...
haha!
I bloody love that show...
because its kinda special in a way,
its funny too...
kinda like a modern vampire film
and Robert Pattinson is so gorgeously handsome...
envious envious.... =,,=
and not to mention Kristen Stewart
who looks like a supermodel..
wow...
I mean her face is so wickedly mysterious and dark...
she reminds me of the twins from America's Next top model...

but I got a little bit confused though... at 2 scenes...
both also kissing scenes...
you know why?
not because I'm stupid..
its because they bloody hell censored some parts of it..
damn it...=.=
macam ni pun censor...
censor your brain la bodoh...

oh yeah, good news if you like the movie or just the actors because
there will be New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn.
maybe I should go get the books and read it...
hmmm...
haha

oh yeah...
sorry Christine, you know that dream us two transforming into magnificently gorgeous creatures after the holidays?
lol I guess I failed that part...
I think I became more uglier to be honest...
of all that sinful eating... and spices...
and late sleeping.. not because I wanna sleep late..
its my cousins and brother=.=
I go to bed latest by 12
and they play till 1 or 2 or even 3!
and I had to close my eyes so hard that light wouldn't penetrate...
think that's possible?
-.-

well good luck to you lar har ^^
and congrates on the sales

oh yeah, I think most probably I'M going back on 25th of Christmas...
the irony..
I wanted to celebrate Christmas here...
but I guess it won't be a Christmas worth looking forward to this year...
whatever then...

well its not bad... because some of my friends had to work...
so I guess I'm still ok...

this holidays passed by surprisingly very fast!
like express train or flight...
bullet train le...
I cannot believe I will be going back soon...
last few years it feels like I'm drifting in a paradise...
just drifting... without pain... and guilt and misery...

but I really don't want the holidays to go away so fast though...
I still wanna linger...
and forget about everything...

but I guess I'm okay now..
I will go back.. and face whatever that's in store for me...
to face life once again...
with a new face myself...
lol



Conclusion = I think I'm not afraid right now...

Pink Skies of Malacca....

I went to Malacca last friday...
and goodness that was one very very fun trip :D
because I thought that is one truly boring place but really if we look harder... there is more than meet the eyes....

so honestly, I did learn quite a lot about this place and I realised how magnificent the architecture here really is.... can use to make movie le... haha
I reached the "historical city" at early morning~~ and I had dim sum!
but it was sucky=.= ...
lol

and then I joined a tour group and the tour guide really enlightened me by showing us places I went before but never really bothered about its past and story...
brings me back to our "Sejarah" lessons.. and I did this time travel mode thingy with my head to imagine how it feels like when it was last time... kinda failed.. haha

and the food here is very very nice!!!!!
omg!! but its kinda limited of course compared to Penang...
feels like I've eaten all the nice food... or the tour guide dunno how to recommend more... but really...there's one Italian restaurant near Jonker street... omg the pizza is so scrumptious
and the food is so bloody tasty!...mouth watering...

funny though I realise I talk a lot abt food nowadays... oh yeah if you guys are wondering whether did I gained weight?... answer is...
YEAH I DID!!!! YAY!!!! XD
I gained around 4 kilograms... from a good 61 to a marvellous 65!
but....
yeah there's a bloody but=.=
there's always a butt...
I'll reveal later... :D
btw all the pictures here aren't taken by me.. sorry.. I don't have a camera or a good camphone so.... I did took pictures... but my friend are too busy to send them to me so... google lo...
ok I went to this place first... but I forgot the name... sorry! -.-
haha just know that it was a high court and now it just moved and its a museum now...
and the other one was a very grand church which took years to build...
must be divine inside because I heard the materials are all very geniune...
closed though... bloody hell...

and then there was the Maritime Museum which was made from a big big ship!
really an awesome view ... but its kinda boring though...
and if I didn't heard wrong there must be at least 40 over museums here?....
goodness @.@

oh yeah oh yeah I forgot... there's the trishaw ride I didn't got on...
because it cost a bloody Rm30 ringgit or something...damn=.= I can go to other states like that...
mad meh...

walking through the streets of Malacca reminds me of the remarkable streets of Penang...
the shop houses designs are kinda familiar at one point... but in Malacca I noticed the original structures are more into depths than wideness... get what I mean? lol...

and then the other tourists had Nyonya food which I heard was ambrosial... wow...
didn't had it because I can't take spicy food outside if you guys have no idea...
haha...
so I hit the gym with a pal in a four-star **** hotel with the lovely name...
Equtorial Hotel...
LOL... (ok I'm not insulting any parties here... I just thought I sounded funny...)
work out work out work out...
got sored in the muscles...
then I went mum mum...
which was 10 something already
awesomeness right?
-.-

so my friend suggested this place where it sells Wan Tan Mee...
which is most probably the most famous one here...
and the longest to wait...
Good lord....
I had to wait 45 minutes until my dish arrived...
by then I was starved to death...
but of course not... You think I stupid meh?
^.^
I ordered 田鸡 while waiting... written correctly right?
lol I dunno what its called in English...
frog legs? =.=
2 plates of them....
and it was very very savory and delightful!
the texture of the meat is to die for and its kinda cheap!
Rm 15 or something... lol.. I shared ma... my friend said there's a place where they sell a larger sized one Rm60 per plate... next time take me go wer...
YAY! can't wait...
and then I ordered chicken legs... and vegetables....
until the bloody mee arrived..
I was already full...-.-
Water The Flowers huh?
so I can't say really its tasty or not... cause I was gonna vomit at one point at my attempt to push all food in... but kinda tasty la.. can come try ^^

oh yeah..sorry ah.. I dunno where this place is.. LOL!
just ask some local where's the best wan tan mee ^^

then the next day, I went to some temples...
one of them is the Hong Deng temple which is also somewhere near Jonker streets...
...hmmm....
guess I'm not wrong..
lol
lots of temples here honestly, including churches and mosques...
and I think I should save my finger typing on how the architectures are again...
which is beautiful... everything here is beautiful if you just stop a little while longer to fascinate and admire its wonders... all the work put into it...

oh oh! I got makan cendol~~ very tasty wu ^^


and then I went on a small river cruise, which was the place all those trading happened long long time ago... you know we read those in our textbooks?
9km long a river... and the water is so murky and vague...
although it shines and sparkles like crystals are laid on the surface when the light was reflected from the golden sun...
-.-

and then I had Chicken Rice balls!!!very tasty wu...
zzz everything tasty la! lol
now this is the life ^^
yum~~
and then of course, den den Den....
Gates of A Famosa lo...
with the big guns ! bang bang!
I mean canons...
and I climbed all the way up the St Paul Hill ... to take a few snaps....
then went back down... and saw the Malacca Sultanate Place...
and my eyes opened wide....
O.O
and as I was slowly walking towards the entrace..
with my innocent eyes and a curiousity of a tabby cat...
passing through the entrace...
suddenly....
UI! a sound made from out of nowhere=.=
and I looked around and saw a hand in the entrace booth...zzz
"nak bayar ke?"
"mestilah..."
Chesse Burger!
then I turned back and left...

this was what I saw... nice huh?
and then I went to the gym again...
earlier today...
oh yeah I remembered why I love this gym!
It has a sauna and a jacuzzi and a steam!!!
oh my god...
I bloody love the Jacuzzi T_T
heavenly awesome....
then I went to have a luscious dinner of seafood at Simply Fish... its near the Dataran Pahlawan Mall... so you guys can go find it...
delicious~~
and then a little break at a cafe... something to start with Z.. can't remember.. a branch from Secret Recipe...

ouh yeah, the buildings of Malacca at night is very very mesmerising...
betul betul red colour @.@

and then and then... I lost my virginity...
yeah...
I went to a pub...
and then I drank...
and drank... and listened to very loud music...
lol...
haha.. I mean... not that I had sex lol...
I mean my virginity to a club/disco/pub whatever...
lol
oh yeah I saw 2 lesbians kissing..
lol and gay people dancing... damn funny...
but that's all I can elaborate.. I actually am fond of this type of place..
I love the loud music and the alcohol although I can't really drink...
got back around 3...in the morning

the next day... I got sick... because either I was overly tired... or the alcohol..
so the whole day wasted...
damn!
I wanted to go makan buffet and shopping...
but nevermind la...
I had a really good time...
oh yeah! back to the weight issue... I got sick.. and lost 2 kg...
now I'm 63... sad huh?
T_T

so that was my Malacca trip...
I had fun,got drunk, lost my virginity, got sick...and back...

haha
Conclusion = Malacca is actually a very nice place ^^ you guys should try that place out!!

A day at the bitch... sorry I mean beach...

hu hu~~ look! sea~~....

sorry for the late entry people... cause so ma fan le.. wanna upload the pictures... need to find the port and transfer 2 times only can go inside this computer=.=....

so actually, I went to the beach on Saturday.. and if I'm not mistaken the place is called Batu Ferringgi...
well initially my uncle said he wanna take us go see the sun rise..
and I was like yay! never really had the chance to see that before.. what an exciting experience to be... and we were suppose to leave my aunt's place by 6 am..
so must wake up at 5.30 am lo...

******Saturday morning 0.15 am.... 6/12...2008~~~*********
Me: Ui! still don't want sleep ah?! I wanna sleep le... off the computer pls=.=
Cousin Sis : wait la.... I wanna search info on losing weight la....
Me: =.= tomorow need to wake up early le... still don't want sleep.... later cannot wake up how?
C.S : *Bang bang bang* wait la!! I also wanna play C.S.... counter strike dulu... very fun le ^^
Me: =.=....

Some voice in the darkness : Hey post this pizza to Greenland street...
Me: Okay ^^...
*Tuu~~ tuu~~~*
*tuu~~ tuu~~*
I picked up the phone... but no one answered....
weird....
* Tuu~~ tuu~~*
*Tuu~~ Tuu~~*
then I picked up the phone again.... and yet no one answered....
*tuu~~tuu~~
Tuu~~ TUUU~~~ Tuuu!!!! TUUUU!!! TU! TU! TU!!!!!!!!!!!!

@.@
I woke up to the sound of my cousin's house phone...
and at that sec.. I realised...
OH MY GOD~~~!!!!
we overslept liao!
and I looked over to the clock and its written...
6.30 am=.=

"har...loh?"
"wui! now what time liao oh? everyone waiting for you both le.."....

Uh oh...~~~~~~~~

***********************************************************************

I was curious why my uncle still brought me to have breakfast when its 6.45...
then i asked innocently...
"Why don't want fast fast go see sun rise le?"
"=.=... nah sun rise >>>> and he points towards the sky..."

when I look up... the sun is already high up in the skies... shining ....

=,,= ||
Sei Ye....

so whatever la... still can go to the beach and play ma~~ WHee~~~!!!

As I take off my shoes... and jumped into the white...beautiful sand...
walao that feeling...
lol long time never felt that warm... massaging feeling already...
then I really like a little kid running here and there... and feeling the warm sea breeze~~
that literally lifted my soul~~~
then my uncle started suggesting we play some games..
like hiding our shoes and finding them by digging in the sand...
and we ended up loosing 2 sides of slippers... -.-

thank god not mine.. WAHAHAHAHAH...
XD

and then.... and then...

I flew a kite!!

den den DEN!~~


lol~~ BAtman kite wer~~~
my uncle's...

=.= "

and then... and then....
my uncle threw me into the water......
then ma swim lo...~~
but nothing to elaborate...
the difference with swimming in the swimming pool is that.. the sea is saltier...
and there are waves...
enough said...

btw waves are better...
LOL

and then... and then...
we just chat... you know play around with my little cousins... and run around again... and I got a bit bored... so me and my cousin Sis started taking pictures again....
haha...
oh yeah oh yeah~~
and the feeling of strong wind blowing in your hair is superbly awesome!!!

one of the main reasons we came down here is to fish too... and korek those siputs...so my grandmama can cook us dinner with them...
but my uncle's fishing net broke off...
and some of the tools got lost...
and we just ran out of mood...
lol
oh oh.... I took a stupid video of me @.@
lol... just for fun...



jangan tanya kenapa mataku kecil sangat...
itu matahari terik sangat ok ... saya tak ada sunglasses juga...
T_T

then.. at around 11.30... the sun is blazing hot already...
so We agreed not to hang around and get sun-burnt
so off we go... say sayornara to the beach...
and towards delicious plates of Penang delights~~

SAYORNARA~~!!

CONCLUSION= YOU GUYS SHOULD REALLY TRY COMING HERE SOMETIMES ^^ ITS AWESOME!


ok ok... this one actually very ugly... but I just wanna show you guys the view...
LOL...
I thin le~~
haha god I am so fugly here ==
Cute ma? LOL
oh my god I'm such a narcissist

Sape Hexers signing off~~

I suck in producing proper notes...

lol... as the title suggests...
and I guess you guys can guess what it means...
yeah.. I do suck in singing...

during my days here in Penang.... I lost the drive to read... although I haven't finish that novel I bought during May... "Thanks for the Memories" by Cecelia Ahern... but I am determined to finish it before I get back...
because last time when I come to Penang, its the actual time where I got proper mood to sit down quietly to a nice cup of tea and a good book..
now I just rot...
but, I found myself a hobby...
LOL!

although I suck at it..

=.= ... my late uncle was a vocal teacher... so my cousin's house has a karaoke room...
so every afternoon I will go down there... and sing!
chinese songs somemore... since my 2 lovely cousins doesn't fancy English music...
and my god.. I do love singing... but I truly disgust my cousin sister when I sing...
she's no where good either=.=
but she always give me that "I'm gonna puke my lunch although I didn't had lunch because I'm losing weight face" to me when I sing and act silly...

haha yeah... but nevermind la... I'm just enjoying myself ma... cause I can't think things straight lately... and my friend, Rico finally showed up again... he lives next door, and his father is loaded... he has a Ps3... a Psp... a PS2.. Ps1... and a Nintendo Wii...
did I mentioned his flat screen plasma tv is dunno... 30 something inches?...
oh yeah... and his monitor is 20something inches... how nice? ^^....

People with money...=.=...

so in the afternoons, we'll gather in the karaoke room and pretend we're having our own concerts and sing together and act like crazy.. and I will start dancing in a weird way and my cousin sis stars.. and he laughs... now at 10.30 already he still wants me to sing because he's bored..
T_T ... cham...
LOL

oh yeah, my cousin sis is on diet... how come everyone around me on diet ah...
first is Jessica... later Christine...
then this girl....
they always have the weight measuring machine around them and they'll measure everyday...
they eat less... and keep staring at the mirror and ask themself.. "I'm very fat meh?"
then turn to me and ask.. "I thin liao ma? ^^"
@.@
and they dont eat much right now.. although all three of them got big big apetitie..
sad girls...they try so hard...but all progress kinda slow..
LOL I'm so evil...
but for what its worth, they are the girls who are really important to me and I truly love them and cherish them ^^

but I'm also in a weight gaining thingy.. no la.. actually I wanna gain weight but lazy to lift weights and drink protein shakes..
actually no... no money to buy protein shakes and dumbells...
speaking of dumb-bells... is that what they're called? the weights..
ya ho.. they call them weights... hey I just used it in the first line of this paragraph...=.=
but I didn't gain much weight either... T_T sad...

and I have not even step foot into any bloody mall yet!
Oh my god...
but doesn't matter... I can wait...

I wanna be here until after Christmas...
because I don't think I have anywhere else to be...
I don't really have a lover to be with... and my family doesn't really celebrate it...
although I want to celebrate Christmas so much...
maybe in the future... I'll go somewhere with that special someone..
and kiss under a misstle toe (dunno spell.. LOL)
and drink champagne and exchange gifts..
and eat a fat stuffed turkey...

and Nodame Cantabile is back! with season 2 (a Japanese Anime)
maybe I'll watch that when I get back to K.L
I wanna change again.. into a better person...
no I will change..
and I'm slowly changing... so that's a good thing...

Oh yeah, I wanted to wait until my mom come to Penang then only I'll go get a hair cut... because she has a friend who is a hairstylist... but my cousin sis thinks otherwise~~
so most probably I'll get a new haircut this coming Sunday..
very excited about it...
dunno what will happen to my "mop" right now..
now I look like shit..=.=
and my cousin sis keeps complaining I look old..
okay lo.....@.@

so ah.. now I wanna go sleep liao.. because tomorow.. my uncle is bringing somewhere..
kinda excited abt it... although I don't wanna give much details first^^
hehe

Conclusion = although things changed... I will try to make this Penang trip a happy one....

Another stream of light...

YAY! suddenly I got back into a good mood liao...
cause my friend took me out today again... gosh.. bless you man, but because he got a lot of activities going on with his family and other friends too... we only met up to eat and just drove around the places... which is good enough for me already ^^


I ate Duck Rice today! :D
shoot.. forgot to edit the picture.. whatever la.. I dont have a proper camera phone also..
someone buy me for chirstmas lar har ^^thank you for bringing me out man!
cause I seriously thought the spaces between my toes are filling with fungus and my legs are growing thorns...
and I'm giving out carbon dioxide due to..
okay that's just another crap...
but I am rotting at one point...
now I'm back liao.. sitting here..
my cousin brother and sister went to Gurney...
each with their own friends too...

damn... now also haven't get back=.=...
but anyways... just to tell you guys that I'm fine right now...
so don't worry^^


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now you see how serious my mood swings are?...
suddenly this morning bad mood now like went to heaven...
I'm going crazy ...=.=
maybe i need therapy ....hmmm...

Conclusion= PMS jin gao lat!

Maybe a change of name

I realise... there's so much negativity and pessimism around me...

maybe I should change my blog name from My Fairytale to..
MY NIGHTMARE.....

=.=

lol.. and I'm a Nightmare Believer... and everything goes back to dark...

Conclusion... no la... I still believe in everything good and there's still maybe a thread of hope...

ISKH

Everytime when I read the posts you guys posted... I really do feel the pressure because I'm not updating at all...
so this is actually a spam post...LOL

just to tell you guys...
the reasons why I'm not updating...

1. I'm not really in a good mood right now... having PMS (lol, as I like to use it)
mood swings actually I'm having... for so many problems and situations I just cannot deal with...

2. Actually my life didn't got boring... in fact.. so many things happened... but mostly in a bad way... and I don't think I would like to write them here... or maybe I shouldn't... cause its best not to reveal everything....

erm... haha I think just these 2 main points which obviously can be elaborated for pages...

so there you have it... why I'm not updating...

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I thought I was stronger... but maybe I was for a period... then I was defeated... by myself.. and everything around me...

I thought I found strength... but my inner hunger made me consume myself and put me in danger...

I realise the words I use... aren't wise... I hurt someone so badly before.... and now... just one bloody conversation actually destroyed a friendship... and all that happiness and hope promised...
I was really looking forward to that happiness I might never get for the next 5 years....
no person ever treated me that good before...

and things changed here in penang... my uncle have a new born son^^
so his kids are his priority right now...
and a lost one who used to cook us great food and bring us around isn't there anymore...
so now I'm stuck here in Penang...
the irony huh? I was really looking forward to come here... but when I got here... eevrything is different...
the feeling isn't the same anymore....
I feel worse... I thought I can recuperate here... restart my system here...
I thought I can run away from all the negativities in Seremban and KL...
but only... I ran into more problems and pain....

but maybe these are all just a perspective...
for being too pessimistic...
but I'm so tired... tired of being optimistic...
because I once was... and I already forgot how it felt to be optimistic... I just remembered how it felt to hope and never get anything I wanted....

I'm so tired right now... I feel wasted...
I hate what I've become...
now I got no mood liao suddenly..
lol
so I stop writing now...

byebye

Conclusion= I'm a hopeless man... a sohai...


LOL
=.=

Crazy for Penang food....

what do a normal, sane mind would do when they first reach Penang?
dive into the crystal clear... sapphire water of the white beaches of Penang or shop at the newest , colossal,gigantesque! malls.... omg! O.O
saya le..
saya makan dulu^^ cause mum mum damn nice... and sinfully CHEAP...
omg=.=....
*drools...*

On friday, a very good friend of mine took me to food Paradise....
MUKYA! XD

and we ordered Curry Mee, Chicken Rice, Prawn Mee (a.k.a Hokkien Mee) and Char Kuey TIAO!!!!!!
in one sitting... lol we shared of course..
oh yeah, and for dessert we had Ais Kacang..
Oh my god...

then we just hang out around.. blah blah blah.. ^^

btw if any of you guys coming to penang
I heard the cendol in penang road is nice
and the duck rice near Prangin mall is awesome!
and the asam laksa in Air Hitam..
but anyways, everywhere also nice de
and try the Lao hao zui.. its a drink.. just order it..
LOL^^

Conclusion = Yay... finally got nice food again ^^


but I haven't go to the beach or shopping yet wo... T_T

GOING OFF TO PENANG LU!!! WHEEE!!!

guys, sayornara ! ^^
haha, I'm going to K.L today... since its 1.40 am right now... which is a Tuesday thank you very much
and then maybe shop a little, if the shopping experience is exciting enough, maybe I'll do another update.. haha
and then... OFF TO PENANG ON THURSDAY!!! YEAY!!!
TO HEAVEN!!!! TO UTOPIA!!! TO PARADISE!!!

and today,which is a Tuesday
I went to visit some distant family members...
then to 1 utama... which I bought a brand new shirt! whee ^^
(nothing much to elaborate....so..)

anyways guys, just to tell you I'm off to my lovely paradise
and I'll do anything to update you guys
I'll go to the cyber cafes... use my cousin's computer..
or even break into some old hag's home...

so...
YAY!!!

Conclusion= YAY!!!

Far away from school~~

Ok ok... sorry for not updating regularly again =.=
haha... but recently I just lost the interest to write again...
I am still me... but not the happy me... I mean, of course I am happy at times.... you guys get it la
still having PMS...lol
Guan Da said its called "Emo Strike" for guys?
but I thought PMS sounds funnier so I'm still gonna use the word PMS~~

anyways, enough with hormones...
and sanitary pads...
its the HOlidays! yay~~...
well even so... sometimes I still feel stressed... if you guys still don't know me.. I don't know how to have fun when I am supposed to and work hard when required...
so I messed up my feelings and energy and in the end I get nothing done...
and I blame myself again..
wow, I am actually causing lots of pressure and chaos to myself aren't I?

but anyways, during the holidays I did enjoyed myself~~
I drank beer...
I ate some very nice food~~
and I watched some very nice moovies~~
and OH MY GOD!!
I REALLY REALLY LOVE MADAGASCAR 2!!
lol its so freaking damn funny, I never really enjoyed laughing to a movie for a long time already....
some people said Madagascar 1 is better... but I kinda forget how was it already... I guess I was very tired when watching it...
but anyways!! LOL the characters are damn funny...
especially King Julien and his gay-ness~~ their expressions are really really incredible...
salutes to the creative team and producers..
and the penguins! lol... and that old lady... who is kinda irritating.. and she walks weird..lol I laugh everytime when I see her walk..=.=
and that big CHIPMUNK thing which cannot stop laughing! -.- lol...
i really love that one...
anyways, its a very very enjoyable show..
I'll recommend it to anyone :D

and I watched James Bond-Quantum of Solace...
lazy to check the dictionary for the meaning though...
damn... I love the action sequence~~ the way the camerawork moves and how the actions choreography was potraited was one hella ride... really intense ^^
and Olga kurylenko is very very sexy~~ and HOT...
szzz......
smokin~~
well of course, I get to become a pig again...
sleep and eat.. and sleep...
and play....

oh yeah, My aunt from penang and kl came!
with my lovely cousins~~
and a friend..
lol who I don't know and don't care to be honest...

and then we catch up on each other lives again over tea...
and my stupid weight gaining plan failed...
miserably.. I actually got to tone my biceps and triceps into a nice shape.. but it went back to girly slim after 3 weeks of not going to the gym=.=.... damn...
I seriously need a membership and a coach or something...

oh yeah, went to Jusco and few times and Kah Moon is working in Skin Food, and boy she does look good with her new hair...
and Jessica...well, she's always her...
she's working in Green Box XD !!!
so enough with this post....
gotta go....Ewww... creeps... we look down on you.... BAhaha...

Conclusion= I ain't doing anything meaningful this holidays... T_T

what now...

so my test 3 is over... 2 days ago...
so what now? fun? well right now I'm not really excited about the break...
got kinda emotional because of numerous factors...

well anyways... I've lost track of my high school friend's life...
and I don't know where to start...

am I really troubled emotionally and physically or is everyone going through the same thing as me... either this is puberty and raging hormones... all its just the dark inner world I'm living in and everything from the past, the present and the future I predict rolled into one ....

once again... I feel trapped...lost...confused... and haunted...
by myself.. time... emotions... people ... past present and future...
I hate myself... for what I am... and sometimes I do love myself... but that's when I thought there are people who love me too... for who I am... but I am actually not just an average guy....
I'm more than that... I think too much... but I cannot stop it... thinking the unnecessary and creating more chaos in my soul and making myself lost in the world that should have never existed...

Dark secrets I have... but other people do... and I know that there are more people out there... far more tragic than me... far more unfortunate...
but I am one of them too....
feeling so lost... and in deep torment...
yeah I know what you are thinking...
"this guy is pitiful"
"get over it"..."move on"..."be positive" blah blah blah...
tell me something I haven't heard of please...

**************************************
anyways, that was what how I felt yesterday... and almost everyday....
I stopped writing halfway, today is a Monday.... a morning... where I woke up like last time... greeted by birds... and I can sleep well again...
ah... I miss the holidays...

and the way my mood changes like a girl=.=

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!!!

CONCLUSION= cause you're hot and you're cold, you're yes and you're no~~ you're in and you're out, you're up and you're down, you're wrong when its right, its black and its white,we fight we break up, we kiss , we make up~~~ LOL I love that song~~

ARGHH!!!!!

TOMOROW FINAL EXAM LIAO LA!!!!!

IF I DONT PASS ALL= 60% AND ABOVE
I'M GONNA LOOSE MY SCHOLARSHIP!!!!

HELP!!!!!

CONCLUSION = AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

on the bright side, after my finals, can blog again liao lu...
cause..
HOLIDAYS!!!
WOOPEE! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! to me.. hee ^^

WA not bad wer...
as I thought that my 18th birthday will turn sucky and hit the sewage...
it actually turned out better ^^
A WHOLE LOT BETTER HONESTLY!

because you know, normally, as previous years my examinations will clash with this wonderful date ^^ and all I can do is sit down in my dining room... stare at my textbook.. and cry... whole day long... thinking how come I'm so sad...
LOL of course not=.=
usually, I'll just have a nice helping of delicious cake and sparkling juice! ^^
oouh I love sparkling juice....
sparkling juice...

with my lovely family... and so sad I never really got to celebrate with my friends especially my close ones T_T

but at least I received some heart touching presents before, so thanks guys for those presents :D

and this year was down-right ridiculous =.=
because I dunno why everyone started wishing me so many days before my birthday...
and one kiddo actually greeted me everyday since 1/10 until my actual birthday...lol
I must have did something pretty illuminating in his life ...
but honestly la... its weird to received birthday wishes few days before your actual birthdate..
give full blow ma^^

this year a lot of people greet me wer.. surprisingly, most of them I only met and bonded this year ^^
I honestly didn't expect much of this because I thought I'm kinda nobody in college...
so thanks anyway :)

oh yeah, sorry Christine =.=
lol I know you wanted to give me a surprise but I accidentally saw you passing my birthday card..so.. haha
and I am frankly, touched by you,Yong Han,and 234 because you guys planned my birthday surprise 1 week ago le...
I felt really blessed....
with the cake being ordered and the present bought one week ago... that really touched me T_T
i wanna cry already...

=.=

LOL

wa... and the birthday card was handmade wer...
and thanks so much again to those sweet and lovely comments^^

well, I had Dominos Pizza for dinner but that was really lovely to be frank..
cause I never had that pizza before and GOD I LOVE THE CHEESE
YOU GUYS YOU SHOULD TRY IT TOO!!

and after having dinner, I went to watch an episode of Taiwan Soap Opera ma... then suddenly hor... the whole room went dark !!!
O.O

lol, I thought what the hell happened!
kena robbed ah?
and when i turned around, someone smacked me in the neck so hard that i fainted...
and when I woke up...
I found myself in a luxurious restaurant with marble tiles...
and fully blossomed flowers... and champagne
with my friends sitting of opposite me with wider smiles...
and I think this is too exaggerating liao so I pull back...
pull....
back to..
reality...
LOL
sorry la , I just like to fantasise sometimes..
(hope you guys know what's happening)

so when I turned around, I saw candle lights slowing eating the darkness from one corner
and I thought "ouh...surprise ^^"
and my housemates sang me the Birthday Song ^^
and I was shocked when I look at what was written on the cake..
LOL



well, I would love to tell you fake,grandfather stories of a luxurious birthdays
like that crazy MTV show where those bloody loaded girls... no I mean bloody girls with loaded fathers...what was that show again?
oh.. My Super Sweet 16...
god.. you guys should see one of the episodes..
they have their birthday like they're gonna die the next day...
with sports cars as presents... designers clothes, and hot chicks... and celebrities.. and scrumptious food... and that extravagant entrance....
oh whatever...
you know what I think?

Honestly, our birthday isn't just a day where we celebrate the life of that particular person only
as most of you guys know but forget, our birthday is also the date where our mother gave us life... and struggled with death...
we celebrate that person as a whole and the people around him, which undeniably shaped him and grow with him... so a birthday isn't just a day for one bloke... its a day for everyone
which means to say, I am thankful for you guys, each and everyone of you for growing up with me and inspiring me...
and I love you mom ^^

(lol, hope I don't sound too gay )

I am happy with what I have now and I really love my friends :D
so, again, thanks so much for the whole celebration ...
I'm not used to being pampered...lol

so I'm really uneasy and feeling a little bit guilty frankly because everyone is treating me so lovely and I thought I was such a mean and cold person...
so ... I will be better to you guys...
and cherish you people everyday^^
(btw I saw these on the net... and I thought to myself.. I must get one of these my future birthday^^)
haha...
say it with me...
WA-LAO

Conclusion : I love you guys so much XD and this day really meant a lot to me and touched me in so many ways so.... THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU!!!
TERIMA KASIH!!
谢谢！！！！

RUn ah!! Kena tag!!

Question: What is your name? (Please give one answer)
Wong Qing Zhe 黄庆哲
好听吗?
AHAHAHA.... 38=.=

Question: What is your nickname? (Please give two answers)
erm... Alex...Alexander...Al..
SapeHexers...
Katakuna ( but only one person uses it..lol)


Question: Three books which you often read? (Please give three answers)
err... recently I gave up the habit of reading aleady...
that's sad...
but if I must say... I suppose Reader's Digest?
Hot Magazine
Galaxie Magazine...
(who reads books over and over again... when you can read new ones.. so I put magazine lur... don't think I so stupid dunno apa tu buku..)

Question: The things gained from Blogging? (Please give four answers)
the things I gained from blogging ah... I suppose I opened myself to the world and giving my friends a chance to know another side of me..
and to keep my friends updated about what's going on with me.. (although I rarely update right now..) so, I am actually strengthening the bonds with my lovely friends :D
and...
that's all (I think)


Question: Your favorite food? (Please give five answers)
1.Japanese food! very nice wu ^^
2.Western food! I mean the steaks and all..
3.desserts ...
4. I'm stucked here=.= cause I love to eat everything as long as its tasty...
5.Penang food!!


Question: Favorite songs? (Please give six answers)
1. What hurts the most- The rascal Flatts (this is the only song that made me cry so...)
2. Light On - David Cook
3. A thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton
4. Take A Bow -Rihanna
5. Iris -Goo goo dolls
6. I will be -Leona Lewis
(actually I have a lot.... these are what I thought of currently...
and My lao po de songs no need write de la.. you guys know how much she means to me .. ^^)



Question: Places that you wish to go? (Please give seven answers)
1.New York!
2. Las Vegas!! (must go there gamble wu..)
3.Vienna :D there beautiful le..
4.Milan
5. Japan..I want see sakuras...
6.England...
7. everywhere la..
8 ya ho, Dubai!



Question: All-time favorite movies, dramas, or animes? (Please give eight answers)
1. TRANSFORMERS!!!
(SCREAM WITH ME!
TRANS-FOR-MERS!!!)
2.不能说的秘密 concept nice le..
3.Lord of the Rings!!!
4. Star Wars!!!!
5. still got what very 感动 de liao ah...errr...err... I forgot..lol but recently I watched Mama Mia and I love it :D
6.SAW!
7.(this one is drama... DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES!!! 很感动的叻...and of course 38)
8.HEROES!!

Question: Items that you wish to obtain? (Please give nine answers)
1. My Dream HouseS
2.A wonderful Car
3.A jet
4.A modelling portfolio and then a contract for Elite Models
5.An Oscar... hopefully more than one..
6.A Grammy...
7. An Emmy.. Ok la.. must be humble.. so I save some space, In another words.. All the prestigious awards lur... including 金马奖 and the rest chinese awards which names I forgot...
8.A Music label ...yaho.. plus Fashion line lur..
9.A nobel prize for bringing world peace and solving poverty and uniting each other's hands for peace and harmony... LOL



Question: You want to pass this tag to? (Please give the names of 10 friends)
I lazy go tag people le..

My Ideal Wedding Plan ~~

I mean for the moment of course, obviously will change in the future :D

1. How old are you?
me ah... in 10 more days turn 18 lur.. so must cherish my innocence.. LOL

2. Are you single?
definitely :D

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
erm around 25 till 33 gua... but hopefully before 30 ^^

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
not with anyone currently so...

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
I want to marry myself..
LOL!
no la ><>

6. Do you want a garden/beach or a traditional wedding?
erm.. I want.. a beach most probably.. or a beautiful graden .. just somewhere breath-taking will do...

7. Your ideal motive?
I also dunno what does this sentence mean=.=

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
well, hopefully overseas.. like Milan, venice, Paris, japan... but yeah, anywhere beautiful will do.. as long is with the one I love ^^

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
all my love ones, my friends who are true to me and loyal to me... to those who are fake :D hehe... you sure will be missing an extravagant wedding... but I suppose those who read my blogs are my loyal friends so you guys sure kena invite de la dont worry ... especially to those who don't vote for me ah.. because you're so lazy.. you better dont even think about getting an invitation... because that time ah i will be so famous all my celebrities friends will come :D including my love- Avril lavigne....
(OMG I TYPE TOO MUCH)
LOL


10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
extravagant- duh=.= with circus and fireworks and celebrities and everything else.. lol..
i mean as exaggerating as possible... you know me :D never dull ^^

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?
err.. dunno... this one i will answer next time... but most probably a mixture of both.. cause you never know what may be in trend 10 years later...

12. How many layers of cake do you want?
ask my future wife...

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or a simple place?
yeah... a 6 star hotel :D

14. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
whole day ^^

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
no idea....these things dont matter de la.. to guys.. ask my future wife what she wants ...

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your bride(originally groom)?
well.. a bride is a bride... of course she'll make a grand entrance..I'll have her covered in diamonds a jewellery and all spotlights on her, as she walk down the aisle, fireworks exploded everywhere until she reaches my arms...
nice enough?

18. Name the song/tune you’d like to play at your wedding.
well I got this 2 already in my mind..
Iris- Goo goo dolls
I will be -Leona Lewis + Avril lavigne
and all wonderful love songs.. I'll make a list next time when I am actually planning for my wedding..

19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
err... night..

20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
~ light 。。。

21. What age do you want to get married?
28-30

22. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
someone who is loyal and strong, who will stay with me through whatever, through life and death... someone who makes me happy :D ... someone who is loving and smart
and MATURED! (GOD I HATE STUPID CHILDISH GIRLS=.=)
someone who loves me for who I am ^^

23. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
fine dining

24. Champagne or red wine?
yea... LIANG GE DOU YAO!!! btw why no ask white wine=.=

25. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
ask my future wife...

26. Money or household items?
i think that time money also let her control liao..so ask her..

27. Who will pay for the bills?
ask her=.=...

28. Are you ready for married life?
of course not... LMAO! that's the funniest thing I heard.. I can't even handle myself.. too much things to do before settling down...

29. Do you think you will still be a virgin until you get married?
wa..=.=... you ppl say le... you look at me, so innocent...
LOL
comon... I suppose the 21st century generation is open minded enough to know that sex is well...
I mean its not really that critical... who cares whether you got banged b4 or not=.=
just dont go banging someone else when you're married :D
but to answer that... most probably not... LOL
naughty naughty.. ><

30. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
yea...

31. How many kids would you like to have?
4! I already got names for them liao
I want 2 boys and 2 girls..
actually I only got 1 name.. I want to name one of my lovely girls, Rose

32. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
New...hmm.. but if you buy a billionaire's house also good ma.. so ah..
ask her...=.=
CHam! I think I 'm the type takut wife de wer..
no la ...nono actually when I say ask her meaning I'll ask her opinion.. not everything goes her way..
lol
^^

33. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding or diamond wedding?
i dont even know what are those..
but diamond sounds good XD

34. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
no idea... next time only plan.. but of course those delicious and expensive cuisines

35. Will you record your honeymoon in a CD or DVD?
definitely, in DVD

36. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?
hmmm.. those who wanna do just do lur then i come see.. I want to see RURU de.. but he no blog.. screw him...

The Mirror in the Sky...

yesterday was the Mooncake Festival and the atmosphere was well...
not really that exciting I might add... sad huh?
cause I remembered when I was young... my friends and I would run around in the dark... play hide and seek...light things up... burn things up... lie on our backs...watching the moon... and chat like there's no tomorow... and of course... devour devour devour...

but where did that went...
and what was I doing during last year's celebration...
Spm preparation I suppose...

sadly, I didn't got to celebrate the festival with my family...
not like they celebrate every single thing either... or some important things... like hmmm... birthdays... (thank God not mine though, cause I'll bring forth hella wrath if they do... creeps...)

and I didn't ate many mooncakes either...
damn, I missed the Chocolate Cheese I had last year... or the Jelly-like one...
or the typical red bean or the egg thingy one..

cause sadly, I was sleeping throughout the day at my humble abode...
which isn't that sad... considering the fact that I can actually sleep...
without interruptions from cheerful roommates/housemates who had to announce their arrival or call your bloody name when entering your room in a very very high decibel tone...
or the usual laughs during 2 am in the morning ... loud laughters from people who knows how to enjoy themselves from soap operas... so addictive that they can't sleep...
or the usual game of dota.... where reactions from gaming were magnified...
talk about gaming experience...

thank god... for my lovely home...
where my brother is considerate enough to put on his head piece...
but of course the main reason he's doing that is to avoid detection from our mom...
anyways, peace for both sides...

no worries about screwed-up mosquitos!! sucking the precious blood out of me (as we speak) and leaving me itching like hell... DAMN! I CAN'T STAND THEM ... T_T
and sadly! I'm the only victim in my condo unit....

and I never have to worry whether my bed is gonna collapse at any instant during my sleep...

oh yea... why am I talking about sleeping in my comfortable bed again?
wait....
ouh.... lol... the amount of things you say when complaining... but I ain't done yet..
nvm I'll save it..
so Saturday was just sleeping... a little bit reading.. and computer and my usual 1 and a half hour with my mentor :D (which is seriously enlightening... if it wasn't for the 10 am alarms... I would be sleeping till the late afternoon...

and Sunday... I went back at 5pm... to that dreadful place...
trust me (I don't hate that place... I love it actually, and sometimes even more comparing to my home... but in short... there are always the pros and cons...go figure... or come live with me ! ^^)
(guarantee you'll raise some pressure if you're the vulnerable type :D)

anyways... got back to my condo around 7 something...
and Christine was jumping around so eager to light up the candles at the balcony
at 11 pm, we turn off all lights in the unit..
and started arranging the candles ...
and then we lit them up
I gotta tell ya, it was awesome!
surprisingly..
and then we started burning things... loud music in the background..
LOL
since there's no lanterns.. we just took photos after photos...
typical ...
until everything was burnt off...
and we tried to watch the moon... but we're in a condominium and we had to tilt our head in one way and push our body a lot more to the side.. and..
you get the point.. we gave up..

then we went back in, feeling all giddy...
and Christine shared her mooncake :3
CHOCOLATE OMOCHI!

so... I could officially say,
I had a fun Mid Autumn Season..
lol
( I still wanna eat those bloody delicious mooncakes though T_T)

OH YEA..
i know the pics might spark something in your mind
but nah... ain't dating :D




Conclusion= I gotta go scratch my legs.... fucking mosquitos!! Curse your species!!