Mixture

Dear readers,

I am scared...
lol
(ok I'm sorry for always killing an atmosphere by laughing after I finish a sentence of what seemingly should be serious...)

but yeah, there's still this fear inside me, because holy crap! I'm going back to school ...
and the whole process of fitting in... and getting to know kids... getting positive attention from lecturers... will run its course again. I am absolutely excited for classes,because I will do something totally different from what I do before and I sincerely hope God will bless me on this path, but I hate orientation though....
and I pray hard not to meet any self-proclaim divas or divos...
or any plastics walking around because I heard too much of these cases and I cannot deal with people constantly stabbing and injecting poison at your back

this time, I'm on my own, and I feel like a little boy going to primary school again because I have no one with me, and I hope fate will put me with someone nice and sincere

frustrated that I don't own a car, and my parents says its impossible to buy one for me ...
well, can't blame them.... its not like we're freaking rich either~
and traffic in PJ is shitty, seriously!....
accommodation is crappy...
and I heard you have to pay like 9 bucks for Mixed rice wtf...
how am I suppose to survive there...

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random stuff
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I think Grammys was awesome, especially the performances
but the results are kinda....
I don't know... I get into a lot of trouble when commenting..lol
but I seriously think Album of the Year should have been awarded to someone who actually have a better album...
I have nothing against Taylor Swift,she's sweet, she wrote all the songs in her album, very clean image
but really...her album is absolutely plain... and nothing to go crazy about...
yes I want Lady Gaga to win, maybe I'm being biased, but
at least Beyonce has a better album ~

I have a tongue ulcer that is draining my life source and I feel like I'm really dying..

I went to KlCC yesterday and as recommended by miss Janice..
I went to Marks and Spencer and OMG
THE UNDERWEAR IS REALLY NICE!!
LOL
IT IS SO BLOODY DAMN SOFT AND SILKY I cannot stop touching it
and someone actually rubbed her face on it ==
I'm gonna wear only Marks and Spencer from now on
lol, and I thought you were being exaggerating ....

but the candies I bought were sucky...
maybe its the ulcer causing me to not actually taste~

I'm playing Heroes of Newerth like crazy these days..
its like the time I was first introduced to dota...
except HoN is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUUUCCCCCCCCHHHHHH
MORE AWESOOOMEE!!!!
lol (its a game that's exactly like dota except they spiced it up and changed the layout and interface, games are hosted by servers too not stupid hosts and entering stupid rooms which are always full... HOLYFARKSHEET!! o.o )
(not to mention stupid leavers and stupid people with bad attitude and slang that is utterly distasteful... )

I still haven't write my New Year Resolution..
screw me to the max, I'm wasted~
lol
I stopped reading books weeks ago....

I'm still ugly
I'm still retarded
and I am turning bitchy and foul again

I love you people!
Conclusion = OH MY GOD ITS FEBRUARY ALREADY?! =.=
fucking ulcer... -.-

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! WELCOME 2010!!

HELLO 2010! HOW ARE YOU?
lol
let's be the best of friends :)

I think I should post my first 2010 post especially on this date!
but I only have like 10 minutes left so I better be quick! LOL

well really wish the best for all of you guys for 2010!
and hope many more dreams will come true for us :)
Well I kinda changed my looks in one way.... its actually like my 17 year old haircut..
but it works better with my now.. more matured face..LOL
and wisdom
er hem..
nothing like a fresh new start with your best friends
I read that, what you do during your first day of New Year will mark what you'll be doing for the rest of the year.
so let's see, I was with best friends having fun.
Good.
I took photos and posed (hopefully it means ACTUAL photoshoots in the future.LOL)
Better.
I chat with Janice for hours... lol another good thing.
Listened to Adam Lambert, and other great music.
Spent quality time with family, had dinner with family.
Travelled in a sense.
and I haven't read yet damn! only 6 minutes left!
give me three minutes to read a book wait...
OH! AND THE PIANO!
give me one more minute @.@
hmm what else...
Work out damn! (*drops on floor and did 20 push ups)
hmm....
I guess that's about it? lol


I went for countdown at The Curve yesterday.
Fireworks wasn't that spectacular though...
the only reason I was high because its New Year and maybe of the close range of view.
Effects are especially vivid.

Oh Joey G and Kylie are hot! First time for me to see celebs in such a close range. there were like right in front of me O.O
ok I'm a sad case.
nvm Karl Lagerfeld will be shooting me soon.
LOL kidding!

Conclusion = Hope 2010 will be a blast for everyone!!
BOOM BOOM POW!

Sweet Dream....

A few days ago I dreamt about you...
we walked silently
in the exact same neighbourhood I'm living in now
from our lovely house towards your car
You were talking sweetly to me
and I was smiling all the time
we drove to your friend's beautiful home
and it was filled with elaborated decorations...
it was a dinner for a special night
and I felt warm around you and your friends

I touched your hands and felt your intoxicating breath
steady and warm...
and I fell into you
you embraced me and I feel safe
I'm in love again
I do not remember your face..
but for the first time ever...
I had a dream so real...
so fantastic I really wish it wasn't so short...
but I am satisfied
because somewhere in my heart....
I really felt that... this is a sign
that for once, I'll find someone who truly loves me

Life after a crazy month :)

Dear readers,

I am done with having vacations and enjoying my December like never before. and I have to say what a wonderful period it was! by far the best month I ever had because of the constant playing and spending,
so thrilling that now I seriously feel guilty....

well I am back home now, my wonderful home in little Seremban. The serenity and beauty Seremban has to offer is indeed blissful, I am in utter happiness here :)

well I guess I can say I'm done with year 2009 and boy what an interesting year it has been! Ups and downs as usual, but I guess this is one year where I grow a lot! compare to the rest, maybe its because I have grown to view things in a wider perspective and being able observe little changes. I am happy that I am able to appreciate things more and finally, am able to smile again.
Glad that I can view things in a more positive way even though all this traits, I only gained late this year, better late than never huh?

I have slowly learn to live my life without regrets, although I have done some really really stupid things in my life, not to mention downright foolish choices, I guess in every path I take, there are lessons ahead installed for me to learn and grow.
What I truly regret though, is not sparing more time and love for my family and true friends, and that will be one main priority for next year.

and I guess I would have to thank the awesome people in my life, no matter how many years or mere seconds we have known each other for, as long as you come into my life and touched me, you got an official Alexander Wong stamp as "awesome!"
lol
no matter whether our relationships stayed or ended, well or badly, I truly thank you people for I surely am inspired by you guys, for the soul you are, and for the world and lessons you showed and brought to me. Thank you, you make me what I am today.
and I am happy and proud of myself :)

I am sooooooo ready for year 2010!!!!
GIVE ME ALL YOU GOT BABY!
lol
I'm sure there will be plenty of surprises ahead! XD
can't wait!
I LOVE YOU AWESOME PEOPLE!!

I gotta end this post here.
OH! sorry for not wishing you guys
A Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
(I'm still in the Christmas mood~~)

Conclusion = My Christmas gift is awesome! Thanks mom and dad! I love you guys :D




here's a smile from the recent me, hope it isn't awful~~ lol

Wedding Dress

Dear Readers,

I fell in love with the song "Wedding Dress" by Tae Yang from the Korean group "Big Bang" since the first time I hear it. The song is absolutely beautiful complemented by its well directed music video.
Tae Yang's ability to turn my skin green with his charming looks is a plus too :)

I was partially bored at home so I finally googled the translation of the lyrics and I was really impressed by the lyrics! not to discredit him before but I never knew how touching and deep the lyrics actually is.
and his voice utterly mesmerizing I never feel bored listening to his songs after multiple plays.



OH! DID I MENTION HIS DANCE MOVES ARE TO DIE FOR?!
JUST SEE HOW FLUID HE CAN MOVE...DAYUMMM!!

here's the English translation

Some say it’s not over ‘till it’s over
Guess this is really over now
There’s something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen

When you have a fight with him
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make feel fine again
To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz then we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Oh, please leave him and come to me

Baby, please don’t take his hand
Coz you should be my lady
I’ve been waiting for you for so long
Please look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you’re wearing
It’s not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy

Now I have no more tears left to cry
When I’m by myself I talk to you like you’re here
I’ve felt so restless every night
Maybe I’ve known all along this would happen
I close my eyes and dream an endless dream
Please leave him and come to me

Baby, don’t take his hand when he comes to you
Coz you should be my lady
I’ve been waiting for you for so long
Look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you’re wearing
It’s not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

Please be happy with him
So that I can forget you
Please forget how miserable I looked
It’s going to be unbearably hard for me
For a long while to come

CREDITS
Hangul Lyrics: bugs.co.kr
Romanization: yukyien @ soompi
Translations: pgeorgie.blogspot.com

touching....
T_T
I wanna go cry now....lol

P/s I just saw someone commented about Lady Gaga being overrated , that she's good but not THAT GOOD
what I have to say is...

WHAT THE FUCK LA!! ARE YOU FILLED WITH SHIT IN THE SKULL?!
(lol I know it may be a very biased perspective to a lot of people)
but come on! her music and lyrics are works of a genius!
and I haven't even start about her music videos ..... the complexity and layers of her creativity is beyond extreme! and she outdone herself all the time ..
she's so much better than a lot of other artistes EXPONENTIALLY ==

(ok I know other people would still argue but I sincerely think people wouldn't see it that way because of the taste in music, not to say I don't admire other artistes but really, the work Lady Gaga have made is so original and edgier she deserves her title)

Conclusion = I wouldn't say Lady Gaga rocks more than Carrie Underwood in country music. Get my point?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Dear readers,

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

I JUST REALLY WANNA SCREAM RIGHT NOW!
BECAUSE I'M SO HAPPY WITH MY LIFE NOW FOR SO MANY REASONS!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

even though I'm so much uglier than before due to pimples
even though many sad things and conflicts has happened
even though I still argue with my family members
even though I'm temporarily deaf in the left ear for whatever bloody reason =.=
(I guess the cause is the flight.... == )

but I am just so happy with everything that is happening right now
especially the positive things that has happened and is happening

I'm glad that I am able to experience so many beautiful things in this world
just got back from Kota Kinabalu and I love it there!
the people are kind and the view is mesmerising...
and the oddest thing is...
I found love there...

that's something I really never expected...
love for the food...
and the place...
and a particular someone...
although its such a short romance...
thank you..

anyway this is just a short entry.
wanna sleep now... gonna rush back to KL for another shopping date ==
god....
its like continuous fun fun fun!!
I really feel guilty @.@

Conclusion = Please cupid I beg of you...don't play games with me anymore. Give me something
permanent ok? XOXO

thank you
lol

Through window panes....

Dear readers,

I sit here in my kitchen...
listening to mellow songs while admiring the rich,brown design of the kitchen cabinets...
carefully picked by my lovely mother
and over the kitchen counter,smoky fumes liberating from the cooking pot...
dim streams of light penetrating though the window panes,
illuminating the dark...dam basin..
I cannot help but to feel blessed about life right now.

Tremendously happy I am with all the positive influence I was exposed to and all the interesting people I met.Thankful for the great,lovely people who came into my life and touched my soul.
I could never ask for more than this :D

I finished my A-level a week ago so I'm free!
for now...haha
the days has been lazy....
but I did managed to insert some activities during these days...
I played Paintball with my buddies,
(a chance to show the sadistic side of me.....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
I managed to shoot my heart out and inflicted pain...hahahaha
but I got shot directly in the head and heart == .. god I suck.... )
watched 2012....
sang ==
oh! and I visited campuses that I am considering....
it was quite fruitful
but I always get mixed reviews.........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ==
WHERE SHOULD I STUDY LA IF I WANNA DO BUSINESS?!
HOW COME SOME SAYS MONASH AND SOME SAY TAYLORS?!
ANY SUGGESTIONS?!!
thanks...
LOL

so I'm gonna play until crazy for the whole December :D
wheeeee!
then I guess I gotta find a job by January...
and I really really pray that my results will turn out good... cause I don't know what to feel about my performance during the exam...
I felt numb....
so God, please please, I'm not greedy... last time I took 4 subjects...
now give me 3 A's can already XP
and I pray that all my fellow friends will get wonderful results too ^^

I wonder what surprises year 2010 will have for me.
I'm excited and I cannot wait for a bigger change :D
but zzzzzzzzzzz
speaking of enrollment ....
I'm kinda beaten by the idea of knowing new people...
shy~~
LOL
and hopefully flowers will blossom again ^^
I guess this is it for now.
Good luck to those taking STPM
and have a magnificent holiday to the rest !

Conclusion = Embrace new changes and life ;)
* I'm happy that someone I stopped talking to for months actually replied me yesterday...
LOL! what a surprise @.@
try contacting a lost one, you never know what answers you might get back.
I'm glad I did.