New Moon

The Moon Cake Festival...
also known as the Mid Autumn Festival... doesn't really carry any significance in my life...
I didn't get the chance to taste any delicious moon cakes either.
even though I do yearn for a chocolate flavoured one...

life has been slow... and boring for weeks already...
I just cannot wait to move out of this A level phase...
move on to 2010...
because I cannot bear this dead environment anymore... thank god its all going to end...
with a final war..
and yet... I'm not equipped or ready at all...

so I guess I would most probably die in vain...

at a lot of points... I wanna move out ... detach from my parents...my family
its really negative here.. the energy...
I cannot stand it no longer.. and I always wondered why I can tolerate the energy...
but no... I guess I didn't really fight it through.. it did drained me...
making me tired... and lifeless...
and deprive all my motivation...
to live and grow...

I went cycling yesterday...
and I realised a lot has changed...
the playground which I frequent to when I was young...
has grass growing all over the sand now..
and many tall trees erected in a lot of places...
the second playground...
was burned into ashes...
I wonder what happened to it...
sad..

More beautiful homes were built
yet.. the place is always quiet...
one reason why I love exploring this place..
I love the sound of silence...
it always makes me feel calm.....

I can't wait no longer....
I wanna go away...
Conclusion = Planning of departure...