Lost...

When things falls apart... and the numerous things you spent hours and days to regain and recollect... just slip away again...

everything feels... wasted... I feel... numb...

I fell ill for 3 days and counting... and the pain is excruciating...

the feeling of being vulnerable in the inside... and the icy coldness from every possible source...

Death just rang....

and unexpected call...

I am...

still appalled.....

I suppose I really took everything for granted....

I'm very sorry....

Conclusion: No mood for conclusions.... I miss you guys...... my angels and light... (you know who you are)