Stress...

equals to Force over area...
but this equation is usually related to tensile stress...
so am I being squashed?
crappy question...but emotionally and spiritually yes...

the force of everything from the universe which acts on the total surface area of my body...
how do you calculate that force?
its not confirmed actually, it's something dependent...
on how you accept and perceive things..
how you react to changes and situations...
how much force you let react upon you...

Good evening, I am your friendly friend...
Sape Alexander Hexers ^^
and I'm back :D

for the past month so many things happened and changed...
well I definitely changed...
relationships were formed and destroyed...
I lost someone I dearly heart...
and I realise a lot more about myself in a short time...
yes... everything is negative
but I guess its time to switch polars and try to live life productively and try hard to be happy now
it was effortless long time ago...
but the circumstances and short-comings I'm facing from the last update really made me realise..
nothing is for sure...
nothing is promised...
and what we do... the minute things... the stupid things you say...
actually, can make a serious drastic change...
situations may even be fatal...
at one point I thought I died... slowly...

right now, I don't wanna think about anything...
but people,
more drama from the
past,
present,
and future is coming!

I am BARK!!!!

Conclusion = I have 2 more trials paper to complete so this is short...
wait for my story....
(If I still have listeners out there.... haha)

Valentine's from a Fairytale...

well yesterday was valentine's, I didn't got the chance to spend it with a lovely princess so I decided to have a few moments of romance with my imaginary girlfriend and I made up this story to entertain you people ^^

if you think I'm referring to me...
then think all you want :D

Once upon a time, in a land not so far far away, a prince was very much in love with a lovely young princess.The Prince was Prince Alberto Lapesdraz and the princess was Princess Allasandria Weeneiza. Too bad they are living far apart and he actually has another princess...
so its actually an affair... and she knows about it but she decided to love him because that bastard stole her heart away first... then only he told her about the case...
but actually that princess also was retarded because she didn't think properly of what may come and what will hurt her in the future for being in a relationship like this, until now she is so terribly in love with the prince charming....

anyways, it was VALENTINE'S DAY!
and after finishing class in magic school, she hurried off to the station to get on board on the flying dragons off to the south! to meet her prince charming, who was working his ass off...

after hours of ride in the sky, with her gorgeous black hair blowing everywhere~~
she finally landed on Macania, the place where pirates meet.
she didn't got a present for him but we all know what guys want XD
anyways,
prince charming was waiting for her at the station already, on his greyish horse,
his ever attractive body made Princess Allasandria high~~
they embraced and rode off to somewhere...

on the way, Princess Allasandria was pissed! because Prince Alberto told her he couldn't spend much time with him because he's cheating on her with another Princess who is equally sexy...
now that's honest...
and he couldn't book a room in the luxurious castle to spend the night with her...
and most probably they'll be renting a hut in the village...
Princess Allasandria was disappointed... how could all these things happens on Valentine's day..
she wanted it to be perfect... and she was ready to show him her Amy...

Prince Alberto held her hand all the way... and when they passed to a thick jungle, directing their way to the so called village...
to Princess Allasandria's surprise, it revealed a HUGE castle!
made from diamonds of all kinds!
and their room was just amazing!
the furniture was of coffee scent, bright colours...
the pillows were fluffy and big!
Princess Allasandria was so surprised and excited at the same time!
"This is my surprise for you my love"
Princess Allasandria was so touched, and in tears
she pulled him in...
they kissed passionately and had hot saxophone...

after they cleaned their instrument,
cause after blowing hard into an musical instrument and making sexy music..like jazz
you gotta clean the saliva and the... what is that called? reeds?
yeah reeds..
and polish it too!

they went down to the restaurant to have dinner together, they had Japanese :D
and it was lovely...

(hmm... i'm starting to get bored of this...)=.=

oh anyways,
they decided to buy a bottle of red wine and a bottle of white wine to celebrate in a nearby bar...
and they drank and drank and talk to each other..
looking deeply into each other's eyes...

and drank until their sorry asses are drunk...
and when the clock striked 12...
fireworks blasted the sky
with magical dust and colours of heavens

Prince Alberto suddenly kneel on the ground and pulled out!
he pulled out!!!
HIS!
ring which was accident, he then pulled out another sparkling blue sapphire ring from his robes and stare into Princess Allasandria's eyes...
she jumped, and held out her hand...
the ring fitted perfectly ....

now i'm really bored.... hmm..
oh anyways,
they live Happily Ever After~~

Conclusion = Happy Valentines!

btw btw I FREAKIN LOVE ADAM LAMBERT!!
ANYONE WATCH AMERICAN IDOL?!!
OMG I WANT HIM TO WIN!
HE IS SO TALENTED!
and i wanna slap that Tatiana girl...
eventhough she is so fucking funny, the way she laughs...and speaks...
and irritates Simon..
LOL


THIS IS THE NEXT AMERICAN IDOL!!!
BTW I LOVE HIS STYLE!
its so me... i mean what i wanna be although my friends cant accept it if I dress like that=.=
god..

6M REuNION~~

WA!I cannot believe we still could meet each other after~~...erm..
wait let me count...
1...2..3...4....wait...2....3....4....5....wait...0...

7 years?! (Me bukan retard...jangan drop comments~~ tentang saya kira kira...LOL)

surprisingly, 18 showed up!
I mean out of... how many? 44 ? lol... but the point is... this kinda reunions... with primary friends somemore... I expected like 9 or 10 showing...
and the no. is actually more than last 2 years which was the first re-union after we left primary...
that time only 13 showed up (according to Mr.Ray)

most of them changed!
I mean... actually everyone changed, if you compare to so so long time ago... if you don't... then most probably you need hormonal injection or something...

haha, cause I still meet up with them once in a while, so I don't really feel drastic changes in them.. except for Michelle!
wow! she looks like a Taiwanese star in real!

and I personally thinkH.C.L change of style is so nice :D
Jess ah... you always leng de la... don't ask =.=
don't come beat me anymore ah T_T

anyways... I always had to complain...
so...
SHITTY wei...
my friends can't really eat.. I mean most of them.. and that made me lost appetite too..
Rm18...
wooosh~~~

I had a great time though..
catching up with all my friends :D

then of course...everyone didn't spare the opportunity to camwhore..
haha

oh yeah, we played a prank on RAY=.=
we mixed butter with Durian flavoured ice cream...
and...
-.-
HAHAHAHAHA!!
god I'm so bad....

actually I lazy to upload... go here tengok lar har :D
http://ray26secrect.blogspot.com/
Good Night

Conclusion = Why the rest of the leng luis no come de ah?

After all that travelling...

back from Penang yesterday and I crabs for dinner^^
which is absolutely delicious :D

my friends keep begging to come to my house so this whole day I spent lots of energy in trying to cleaning this place..
but..
LOL...
my mom really needs a maid...

anyways, Chinese New Year mood is almost over for me already... although its just the fifth day of the new year...
but anyways... Test 4 is 1 week away...

well, this CNY isn't really that enjoyable maybe because of the loss of my late uncle...
he usually would cook very nice stuff and bring us somewhere...
but on a better note, I still get to enjoy scrumptious, mouth-watering dishes I only get to taste once a year, and be with family whom I love most ^^

anyways Kaylie said she wanted to see my hair when its all natural and not gelled up into some weird hairdo...
so I post some pics lar har...
hahaha
anyways this is how I look when I go to school already...
looks like a kiddo huh? ^^
hee...
Mukya! XD

took them when I was in the car travelling to Penang...
Long journey it was...
goodness...

Conclusion = Happy CNY? yeah... HAPPY CNY!!! :D

First Day in Tampin~~

which is my grandma's place~~
but god... this place is seriously boring..
I don't have friends here and there is not a slightest form of entertainment here...
except there's Astro and an internet connection which was just connected recently...
but with 10 kids running around screaming and robbing my privacy of using the computer or watching tv...
you'll just run out of mood =.=

and god... when you let them play, they'll play for hours and when its your turn, they'll ask for their turn after 2 minutes...
What on EARTH?!
=.=

so everytime I'm here... I'll definitely get a good 14 hour sleep...
LOL
I can't even read or study because of the frustrating noises the kids make...
and the sounds of my parents and uncles and aunties and grandma playing Mahjong...
goodness...
the only thing I am looking forward to is meeting my Grandma and her delicious food and of course my relatives... but not the noises they make... at least give me some fun time too T_T
I really need to buy a car or something so I can drive to Malacca and find my pleasures there...
^^

and the firework displays every night...
which will run for hours though...

had a wonderful reunion lunch thingy with my whole family~~
which is so heavenly
and my second Ang Pow...
got my first 2 days ago from a loved one..=.=
which is seriously weird.. because its a bit too early
but he's travelling somewhere so.. that explains everything...


Oh yeah! People! go listen to Britney Spear's 3rd new single...
totally smart and awesome
its called
If You Seek Amy ~~

"all of the girls and all of the boys are begging to iF YOU SEE-K A-MY~~"
I do hope you get what it means~~

Awesome huh?
LOL
(this is a totally wicked way to start off the New Year :D )

anyways I gotta go now...
one of my cousin who is an online game freak is already begging for me to leave
so
see you guys next time then^^

I WISH YOU GUYS A WONDERFUL CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
COLLECT LOTS AND LOTS OF ANG POW!
FIND LOVE! ( to those who already have, may the relationship Blossom into an even more exciting one)
FIND GOLD!
and of course EXCEL TREMENDOUSLY in ya'll studies!

Conclusion = Sape Hexers signing out!

A summary of what happened after my last update~~

hmmm... after my last update... I was already getting ready for classes... and a start of a new life... which I kept trying to make it happen but... well,haha I'm trying my best that's all I can say..

hmmm... let's see... things changed for the better(hopefully) in college... my class was shifted into another lecture group because the management wanted to create smaller groups so that lecturers are able to focus on each student... of cours I tried to adapt to the new change because we cant argue much but honestly...

without Christine =.= I can't concentrate in class anymore...

O.O

lol don't misunderstand though,
because last time I usually sat with her and we would listen intensely to the lecturers... and it was a very fun experience learning with her...
but now... my bunch of friends just talk and talk...
and when they get home they study like hell... which I can't do...
and I don't have the brains to compete with them...
so its a loss for me T_T


I kinda have a fondness for my bio lecturer ^^ She's young and funny in a way
one time she told us that what we did during our New Year represents what we will do throughout this year...
what was I doing again liao ah...
.....
shoot=.=
I was drinking... and hanging out... and being with that special someone...
uh oh...
well having a strong stable relationship with that special someone I dont mind..
but drinking and hanging out....=.=
damn, I was gonna study a bit that afternoon but I suddenly had the cravings for ice-cream...
figures....


but nevermind,
I'm gonna put a book on my bed this Chinese New Year and read for 2 hours before we venture into the "New year"
so let's say I'm giving myself another chance...
I MUST EXCEL!
I gotta leave this place...


oh yeah, I have a change of style this year... ( which I have every year)
this year is more towards "casual"
as my friends label it...
to me its simple yet high fashion~~
LOL
my college buddies went bug-eyed when I wore shorts to school =.=
they literally gave me this look...

o.o
O.O

"WTF?!! You wearing shorts?!!"
"Har? Got problem meh=.= "
"No no... sexy wer~~"
"-.- as if..."

lol
even Christine also was shocked when I came out of my room...
"wa! why today so casual? @.@"
"apa maksud wo-.-"
"erm... you also exaggerate a little when you dress up lo..."
"ouh...so that's what an impression I give =.= ..."


well that's one part of my life...
fortunately, my scholarship wasn't withdrawn! ^^ (an issue I was so worried about during my December holidays which nearly drove me into a coma)
YES!
not because I did well in my final exams...
apparently, it was just something the management says so we kick ourselves in the arse to study harder..
I did poorly though...
Don't ask why... T_T

but! my Test 4 is coming!! @.@
and my Mid-Course is coming!!!
and then my AS is COMING THIS MAY!!!!
OH

MY

HOLLY GOD!!!!! -.-

but that is something I gotta lay off my mind for the moment~~
CNY holidays ma~~

hmm... at one point, I am getting along with the guys in my class already, as in I click with them now... since I don't hang out with Christine's gang anymore (note: her gang = 10 guys and 1 girl, its not like I'm hanging out with girls all the time, and I'm not saying guys shouldn't hang with girls if you misunderstand.. I cannot stand crazy people come dropping brainless comments anymore=.= ... seriously, MY BLOG IS ONLY DIRECTED TO MY LOVELY FRIENDS AND THOSE STRANGERS WHO DROPPED BY AND LIKE ME, the rest can just go on with their important lives ^^)

Oh yeah!
I have my own room now, so its way better
:D

still thinking what to buy for CHristine on her birthday...
(hope she doesn't read this @.@)

Can't think of anything to say right now ....

Conclusion=Time passes by so fast....

Tagged by an Angel....@.@

The Rule is!!!!

1. Take a picture of yourself right now.

2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair. Just take a picture.

3. Post the photo with NO EDITING.

4. Post these instructions with your photo.


I tag whoever interested~~~

anyways, sorry ah my beloved friends =.=
long time no update wu~~
Maybe during CNY I will

Conclusion= this is how i look like lo when I didn't edit and pose...
lol
but I did cheat la.. sorry.. this was the second picture I took because the first one was dark...
Happy Chinese New Year friends!!
WOHOO!!