New Moon

The Moon Cake Festival...
also known as the Mid Autumn Festival... doesn't really carry any significance in my life...
I didn't get the chance to taste any delicious moon cakes either.
even though I do yearn for a chocolate flavoured one...

life has been slow... and boring for weeks already...
I just cannot wait to move out of this A level phase...
move on to 2010...
because I cannot bear this dead environment anymore... thank god its all going to end...
with a final war..
and yet... I'm not equipped or ready at all...

so I guess I would most probably die in vain...

at a lot of points... I wanna move out ... detach from my parents...my family
its really negative here.. the energy...
I cannot stand it no longer.. and I always wondered why I can tolerate the energy...
but no... I guess I didn't really fight it through.. it did drained me...
making me tired... and lifeless...
and deprive all my motivation...
to live and grow...

I went cycling yesterday...
and I realised a lot has changed...
the playground which I frequent to when I was young...
has grass growing all over the sand now..
and many tall trees erected in a lot of places...
the second playground...
was burned into ashes...
I wonder what happened to it...
sad..

More beautiful homes were built
yet.. the place is always quiet...
one reason why I love exploring this place..
I love the sound of silence...
it always makes me feel calm.....

I can't wait no longer....
I wanna go away...
Conclusion = Planning of departure...

Vampire Poison...

I kinda hit climax when I read a page of Twilight... (because most probably there would be more thrilling stuff in the future...)
page 219 of the first book to be exact

I hope this isn't illegal... its non-commercial purpose anyway so I guess I couldn't be sued...
anyway!
haha
quote from the book... {I'm kinda promoting the book in a sense =) }

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"I was stunned by the unexpected electricity that flowed through me,amazed that it was possible to be more aware of him than I already was. A crazy impulse to reach over and touch him, to stroke his perfect face just once in the darkness, nearly overwhelmed me. I crossed my arms tightly across my chest, my hands balling into fists. I was losing my mind.

My eyes, of their own accord, flickered to him. I smiled sheepishly as I realized his posture was identical to mine, fists clenched under his arms, right down to the eyes, peering sideways at me. He grinned back, his eyes somehow managing to smolder, even in the dark. I looked away before I could start hyperventilating. It was absolutely ridiculous that I should feel dizzy.

The hour seemed very long. I couldn't concentrate on the movie - I didn't even know what subject it was on. I tried unsuccessfully to relax, but the electric current that seemed to be originating from somewhere in his body never slackened. Occasionally I would permit myself a quick glance in his direction, but he never seemed to relax, either. The overpowering craving to touch him also refused to fade, and I crushed my fists safely against my ribs until my fingers were aching with the effort.

I breathed a sigh of relief when Mr.Banner flicked the lights back on at the end of class, and stretched my arms out in front of me, flexing my stiff fingers. Edward chuckled beside me. "
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*breathes deeply...*

as I go through this page...
my hair stood up...
my eyes widen,
I felt ticklish...
and I couldn't help but laugh...
very loudly
and literally felt slight spasms...
I suddenly realise...
god... this feels wrong because...
why am I reading mushy things like this -.-
suddenly my brain snapped and yeah... this is indeed a chick book I guess?
yet...
the very poison that damaged my mind manifested itself..
the absolute reason why...
I kept going back for more...
more Twilight... is because I find it bloody entertaining to read this weird..
teenage... stuff...
haha
and Edward Cullen's overwhelming perfection...
is kinda infectious...
*cough* homo..*cough*
LOL

seriously... the way Stephenie describe Edward is so exaggerating...

anyway what a fun read!

signing off, and going back to more blood....